At my appointment last Wednesday my doctor confirmed that I was scheduled with the hospital to be induced on Friday the 23rd at 5 AM. There are many doctors in the practice and he will start his on-call day at noon. The doctor on call until noon is the same one who began my induction with Grace. We're very excited to have the date and know what is going on, and praying we can be up by 4am to get there in time! We're also so very blessed that it worked so well into our friend Paula's schedule to work that day since she does the epidurals. :) She has the most important job of the day in my opinion!
I've been trying to be more active this past week, walking more and working on projects around the house so that things are off to a good start when we get home. It seems I've blogged about it previously. I've not been sleeping well and the baby is definitely preparing to come. I wouldn't say I've had contractions but I hope the things i AM feeling mean that my body is progressing and this induction will go just as well as with Grace.
My mom comes in tonight after work to stay with us. She'll be here while we're in the hospital to watch the kids and everything is in order and ready for her to take over. The kids are very excited to have her coming and excited to know that most likely their Papa, Grandma Bush and Pops will be dropping in this weekend too. Grace understands more than I thought she would and Tyler is following every detail carefully. He's very much like me wanting to know exactly what is going to happen and what to expect and wanting no surprises. He's upset about not getting to come to the hospital to see us but is taking very seriously his role of Grandma's helper and Grace's helper while we're gone. We're also starting to discuss his quickly approaching birthday more so he's allowing himself to get excited about that too.
It's a big several weeks for us with the baby, Gary's birthday and his birthday all coming up. In addition Halloween is in there. We're not sure what we're doing for trick-or-treat yet, but the Bush's will probably try to take them or we'll do something special. I'd like to try to do pumpkins this year since we haven't in awhile but we'll see how things go this weekend before we make too many plans!
I'm still struggling with the hospital's policy of not allowing the kids to come. It was so important to me to let the kids see the baby first and for the 5 of us as a family to have special time before introducing the baby to the rest of the family. I still can't quite pinpoint exactly WHY it's so important to me or why I'm so emotional about it (well, the emotion part would be explained by the hormones on top of my already overly emotional personality). Gary hopes to set up a video conference between our home computer and the laptop we plan to take with us to the hospital. I'm praying that it works so the kids can see us and we can see them, and so they can see the baby. I'm also choosing to look forward to the time we will have next week just the 5 of us when we are home and Gary's off of work. Things can't always go the way you want them to and while I'm still upset and disappointed, I'm choosing to accept it and make the best of it.
I'm very nervous about being induced... nervous she's not ready or I'm not ready and things will get complicated. I'm nervous about being a mom to three in addition to balancing my other roles- wife, daughter, sister, friend. It's a bit overwhelming to think on! Nursing one while two run amok, and keeping up with the daily things that being a mom bring from patience and discipline to attention, love and laundry! The overriding feeling through this all though is a simmering peace knowing my Lord and Savior has me, and those I love, in the palm of his hand. Things don't go the way we want them to. We're surrounded by hurting family and friends and the burden is just too great, what a joy we have to know the burdens are not ours to carry. We can't carry our own burdens or the burdens of others but we must, out of obedience and for survival, hand them over to the Lord. I'm relearning that daily. I wish I could say I'm "practicing" it daily but in truth I'm not. I'm trying though! As hard as it is to see those around me struggling and hurting and living with worry and doubt, it's also been a blessing. Not quite the "Pure Joy" James talks about, but a blessing. We tend to spend more time with our Lord and allow the opportunity to know Him and ourselves better and more deeply when we have things to bring before him. So to those of you who might read, know I do pray for you and share in your burdens with you. Know that I'm thinking of you and know that through you, my relationship with Christ and my faith are strengthened.
May God always be glorified in the things we say and do. Thank you to those who are praying for us and this baby. We ask you to continue to pray over this weekend as we welcome our newest gift from God into our family. We hope you'll check back here for updates and hopefully photos!
~The Bush's
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