I can't believe we just completely missed Valentines Day. The entire past 9 days have blurred into one. I'm very thankful that Gary had today off because we needed this family and rest day. Gary's just the greatest in the world, i have to tell you. He let me sleep in this morning, got both the kids up and fed and dressed. I was awake around 9:30 but was able to lay in bed relaxing, read my Bible and roll out of bed just after 10 to shower and get dressed. He also picked up the toy room and vacuumed the downstairs. I"m amazed! Gary's not one to sit ALL day so we did head out to Target to get our monthly stash of Target band diapers and Luv's for night. I was very excited that we also got light bulbs and i got a cheese grater. The simple things huh? I got pretty expensive one and already feel guilty but I promise to use it a lot. We all took a nap today when we got home and now we're watching HGTV and playing. Why we torture ourselves watching these people buy million dollar homes i don't know. :) It's almost time for a kids show. :) I have a few things i got the kids for valentines day that I think I will do for them tomorrow. I never made heart shaped cookies or sandwiches or valentines or anything. I spent Monday with my mom and then we had that meeting to go to, and Tuesday everything began with Grandma. My mom brought me these great valentine decorations and I had window decals for the door and just never put them up. :( This past week was very emotional and difficult-more so than i anticipated. Grandma was in very poor health and was unable to enjoy her family there at the end, it's best for her to be done with her earthly suffering and at peace and renewed in Heaven. Even having that assurance of her salvation and place in heaven, letting her go was so hard. Seeing the family we love letting her go was even harder. I cried most for Pap. That man loved his wife in a way that is rarely seen in our society anymore. He loved her with his whole being. This was the first time in our marriage to deal with something of this magnitude. We were both very close to Grandma, i loved her as i love my own grandma's. It was harder than I expected to be there for Gary and deal with my own grief on my own. We handle grief in completely opposite ways. Gary needs to stay busy with simple things as he reflects and grieves on his own, and at his own pace. I like to talk things out, reminice and cry a lot. Gary's relationship to them was clearly deeper and it was difficult to know how to support him best. On top of that we had the children to think about. I'm so very thankful for the people who were willing to step up and take such good care of the kids while we needed to be gone. They were in someone else's care Monday, Tuesday, and Friday evening, out with us away from home on Thursday, and with my mom during the funeral saturday. She brought them to the luncheon and by then we were both more than ready to get to see them and spend time with them again and let the rest of the family enjoy them. We were also very tierd and so were they. I am ever so thakful to have children who can be in someone else's care so much and not be adversly affected. I will say we all need a fast/junk food detox! We also did our best to support Gary's brother, Lia, and especially Stephanie and Gary too. We're blessed to have family like we do and I'm so very thankful to my parents and brother. They sent flowers and covered us with prayer. My mom's help was HUGE and my dad came to the viewing to show his support as well. Having them in my corner means the world to me. We also had friends pryaing for us both which we appreciate greatly.